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The children who grew up with a mother who did not or could not or would not love; with fathers who were absent, physically or literally, from the beginning or the middle or the end; with siblings who only held hands to play cruel games of indian burns and rose gardens and stop hitting yourself. These children wandering the world now, emotional orphans, heavy with the weight of longing and never able to feel the ground, unable to recognize how it feels when they land on something solid, pushing themselves away before the anticipated rejection, the fist in the stomach, the mouth, the heart. So lonely and so broken. Years of therapy if they're lucky, to learn the words that should have been their native language, mother tongue. Even decades later it can take them forever just to utter eight letters, and recognizing the transient shimmer of that truth would be enough to render them fetal, if they felt there were any comfort to be had there.