I made a mental note to myself to write about... something today. It started with the letter W but I do not remember what it was. Not wisdom, weirdness, wallowing. Nor pussy willows, though I got a bouquet of them a few weeks ago and they sat on the end of the counter, mysterious and soft buds. Winter? I have had so much more than enough of winter that I cannot fathom wanting to write about it; winter is my unwelcome guest, longer than three days, longer even than three months, the foul smell lingering like it will never go. Yesterday the sun was shining and I thought perhaps it would be nice enough to start walking again next week and checked the weather forecast and it predicted 25 degrees which felt AMAZING, just to think about what 25 degrees would feel like, I mean I do not even REMEMBER 25 degrees in this country it was so long ago, but then I realized that it was 25 Fahrenheit. Ohrightwinter. As you were.
I do realize it was ridiculous to have thought it could go from the snowstormy 6 below to 25 in a week, but such is my longing for any other weather that I was misled. It was like when you're in a bar and you're sure someone is just looking at you all the time but then you realize that there's a clock above your head. Or when Jackie O is waving at you and you wave back and then realize she's just hailing a cab. Neither of these things have happened to me but I believed a weather forecast and it is just as awkward.