so, how long are you planning on being pissed? i'm just asking because, you know, you make all these rare pronouncements about how long it's okay to be pissed and how it's in your hands to change it or get out of it and yet you've made no changes and here you are, still mad, still all frothy and outraged. the exception proves the rule, sure, but when it's your rule i don't think you also get to be the exception.
and it's not like your anger is baseless so much, because i'm not saying that, but that the base is so well established it seems like you could be moving into some more complex emotions by now. or moving on altogether, as this base of yours is already rich with the basics and their over-dramatic adjectives: your hopeless despair, your fierce indignation, your unwarranted fear; your overarching, salt-stained sorrow; and of course your unchained anger. really, get a look at yourself. if you can't stop running your own emotional gantlet could you at least introduce some subtlety here and there for the other players? something like, oh, i don't know, speechless gratitude? see: you wouldn't have to SAY anything, you'd just have to, for variety, have a feeling that is not always about how bad it is for you. or is that too much?
last week you said you'd lost interest in her because she was in the habit of witty complaint, and now has nothing of substance to complain about and yet somehow continues complaining, just in the absence of wit. a valid judgement, i'm not saying it's not. i'm saying: you were never even witty. you are, to be frank, more than a little boring at your best, when this is your game, the "woe is my middle name" game.
you can change it, you can change how you think about it, or you can change your proximity to it. but really, shake yourself out of this. somewhere inside you is a nice person: a good friend, a fun parent, a solid partner. somewhere inside of you that person is choking. do you like being this way? then please, if not for yourself, then for the sake of my slagging patience, knock it off.
This does not respond to the thrust of your post but I want to plea: Forgive us non-witty complainers or sometimes witty but not always witty.
We complain for thee.
Posted by: ozma | March 11, 2007 at 12:49 AM